Is there such a thing as being "sort of" a perfectionist? Because if there is, that's what I am...
The true fact is, if I don't think that something I made is "perfect" (to my standards) then I will simply put it away and just tell myself that I will work on it later. I have a gown I started over ten years ago that still hasn't been finished, not even touched, because I don't like the way the zipper went in. I didn't have much experience with zippers back then, maybe I should bring it back out... I also didn't want to touch the hem. I think the best way to hem it would be an invisible hem, which at the time I was creating the gown, needed to be done by hand. I HATED hand sewing, so it was just an additional reason to put it away.
I have too many projects in some state of progress, either because I got to a point that I couldn't make perfect, or because I found something that I thought I could do more perfectly.
What does this mean exactly? Well, when it comes to my project of making diaper bags to sell, it has drawn out a project/idea for over five years. Nothing was perfect. I shopped for fabric, found a pattern style I liked, and started cutting out pieces. That's where things fell apart. I couldn't find the "perfect" linings, the "perfect" zippers, the "perfect" additions to make these bags my own. I would blame it on things like not having the right sewing machine, not having enough money, not having the right resources. At this point I have enough fabric for about 100 bags, and have about 50 in some stage of production. I've completed only half a dozen bags so far, a couple as gifts, a few for sale, and I made two custom bags for myself. In those six, I may have only felt that one or two were "perfect" to my own standards. I have even asked people what they look for in a diaper bag, so that I can create that "perfect" bag. Too many notes, not enough follow-through.
I don't know what I am searching for. I think I want someone to tell me that my stuff is no good, because sometimes that's how I feel. I have had little actual training, mostly I have just learned by doing. I have gotten better over the years, well, my sewing technique has. My zippers have much straighter seams, I trim away excess allowances, I have even been known to press a seam every now-and-then!
I have an upcoming shower for a family member and of course, I want to make a bag and a blanket! I got way over-ambitious and added more to my list, I wanted to make a nursing bracelet, some wash clothes and burp clothes. I had to reel myself back. I don't have time to try new things, especially not jewelry making! (rolling my eyes at myself) If I still feel the need for the burp clothes and wash clothes, I can save that for a "coming home" present! So, that's just the first of my distracting ideas that lead me down the path to not finish a project. Then we come to the actual preparation work... I don't love the patterns I use, but I haven't had time to create my own yet. What better time to create something new than when I'm on a schedule, right? Uh-huh... I cut out the squares that will be the blanket top, that's a no-brain-er. On to the bag. I want it to be do-able with the supplies I already have, but to add my own customizations. I started too big, and reasonably paired-down the bag. Although I didn't get as far along as I would have liked, I feel like I found a happy medium to satisfy my creative edge and wanted to customize a gift, while still looking to make everything "perfect". Since the gift is due in two weeks, I will post pictures later.
Let's see how much trouble I can get myself into in the meantime...